The “what ifs” that engulfed her were like tides growing.  Each one more forceful and each one giving no reason or rationale to her present being.  

The problem with “what ifs” is that she already had a good indication of what things would be like. She knew but not everyone had that insight and saw it from the same perspective…

Sometimes the questions we ask or wonder about are the ones that test our character the most and the ones that can create the most chaos in the balanced world we have created for ourselves.  Sometimes not having the answers to our “what ifs” is life’s natural inclination to protect us, a way for the universe that indicates that we are in good hands the way things are and that we do not need anything more.  It is a barrier, a line, or a door that needs to remain closed.  Not knowing can cause significant distress and turmoil in our emotional part of being and so becomes a protection of the pain that may ensue.

The truth that could emerge from the shadows of the unknown can be painful because it may very well be that reality may not meet the standard we had created in our illusion of perfection….

Diana